Tuesday, January 18, 2005

ready for a change

okay... so i'm ready for things to start turning around for me... i'm ready for things between chris and I to be easier... and for things to not be so screwy when we try to plan to see each other... i'm ready for things with my family to calm down... and most of all, i'm ready for some princess time... some time just for me... to relax and be pampered and not worry about everything... *sigh*... can i have that now?

the services for my grandpa were nice... my uncle had a rough time the night of the wake... but my dad showed little emotion... but, the next day, at the funeral, my dad was bawling... i've never seen my dad cry... ever... and at seeing him, i started crying... again... it was rough... my grandma seemed to be doing okay afterward, and this morning when i stopped by to see her, she was much better...

my mommaw (the one that lives with my mom) went into diabetic shock this weekend as well... i was in the room with her when it happened, and it scared the shit outta me... i thought she was having a heart attack... and i just kept thinking, i can't lose another grandparent... but she had done this on mom before, so mom was able to do all the right stuff to get her blood sugar level back up while the ambulance was on its way... and by the next day, she was doing okay as well...
besides the crazy family stuff, there wasn't much time to just relax... so i'm super tired now... think i'm going to go to bed early...

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